Mayday for One

No, this is not a SOS call, but instead my own pondering in how to celebrate a pagan holiday alone, that so very much seeps duality. Beltaine/Mayday/Valborg - this sabbat has many names. But what they all have in common is that it celebrates Fertility.

Fertility can manifest in many different ways. The most known way I assume is the Sacred Marriage - also called the Great Rite or Hieros Gamos, the marriage between the God and the Goddess. In its essence and its name it radiates that it is more naturally celebrated with two or more. So now, when I want to celebrate the Mayday alone I have to rethink the concept completly and try to find something that works for me.

So what is the essence of this Holíday that celebrates Fertility? For me it is about Creating life. And that you can do and symbolize in many ways not just with sex. And sex is although something natural and beutiful, something that are set aside for adults.So how can I visualize Life and the creation of life in a childrens-freindly way?

I have this idea here of planting a seed in a pot of fertile soil and then let my DS follow its developments. Maybe some sunflowers. Maybe something else. Have not really worked out all the details just yet. No casting circle, no raising of energies. Just me, my child and the seed of life.

But I still want to do something magickal and manifesting on my own and I just cant put my finger on what exactly I want to do. Within Wicca we have 8 holidays, and independent of why we celebrate them they are crucial markings on the Wheel of the Year. So, at this marking I want to carve in my appreciation for Life. My first thoughts is to create a satchel of some sort that I can carry with me, but I dont have the ingredients available and l am on a shoestring budget right now. So I dug out an old charm that I actually had not used. Since I just recently cymbolicly cut the ties with my old coven by removing my covennecklace I have room for a new necklace!

So I have a plan! Amazing
! Now of to make it happen

Meatless Monday: Couscous salad

From Several places I have recieved the insentive to eat less meat. It is hard in a family where my fiance says he needs meat everyday but I will at least try. The entire idea of Meatless Monday is not mine of course. I have heard about it before but got really inspired from the blog of Confession of a Modern Witch who I stumbled on for all diferent kinds of reasons. I never saw Mac n' Cheese as something vegetarian - but hey its no meat so it goes! But it was not until just the other week that I found the idea and courage to try  making my on salad (which is not just lettuce, cucumber and tomatoes....) where I stumbled upon a wonderful e-book from Elaine Nichols, the Creatrix of The Radical Rolling Pin.

The book is called "Slow Down and Eat Salad!" and is basicly is a recipe-book in how you make your own salad from basic ingredienses. Now, it might sound silly that me, a grown woman needed a recipee book into making salad right? But I did and this was it. It have helped me find the building blocks and courage to mix myself!

Anyhow, here is the recipe of my first experiment that turned out very successfull:

Warm Cous-cous salad with tofu

The salad
3 dl couscous
some small green leeks
carrots
a bunch of raddish
a red pepper
a small piece of organic tofu (marinated with some nice spices)

The dress-up
2 parts olive oil
1 part white wine vinegar
salt
2 pinches of basil
pepper
1 pinch oregano

1. Boil the couscous
2. Chop the vegetables in the meantime.
3. Dice the tofu and fry it in a fryingpan with some oil
4. Mix in a big bowl
5. Mix the ingrediense for the dress-up and pour onto the sallad
6. ENJOY!

It does not need to be harder than that!

Why yet another blog?

I believe that a blog is much like your clothes. It can either be something you use to follow the mainstream - writing about exactly everybody else does, or what you supposed to write about. Or it could be a fashion statement who truly show who you are. A blog can be used to show the world who you truly are and to let your inner light shine.

I have several blogs in my day. Sadly, they have most of them been of the first category. Written to please others and to write the "right" thing all the time. I have had a pure tarot-blog about ins and outs of tarot. Then had a pure pagan blog where I used to discuss wicca as I saw it, but mostly as a prompter for new pagans to the craft.

Lately I have come to realise that I have never written to just please myself. I have never written without an agenda. Time for that now, is it not? So, for the first time I will start writing a personal blog. A totally random blog about what I a pagan and a mom wants to write about this particular day!

None of my blogs was in english before, so I am changing that too. Most of the other tarot, and pagan blogs I am reading are in english and I have felt stumped by the fact that I have not been able to write, comment or review properly since I were writing in Swedish and their native tongue was in English. But as of today I will give my Swedish readers a bit more credit and have faith in that they will be able to understand me. If nothing else, I hear that google-translate is your freind....

One last itsy bitsy thing: I am not about to gossip about a lot of secrets and so on. However, I feel (maybe without foundation) that if I should be able to write freely I need to actually step into the closet again. Hence I will not re-post on facebook. I hope you can respect my choice and not use my tag on facebook in connection to any of my posts (if you would like to comment on them). Feel free to comment on the blog though!